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Thursday, May 13, 1999

I slept so hard last night that it was like coming out of a well to wake up this morning. I notice tonight that I can't concentrate and I feel like I'm still zonky. Once I was up I was wide awake though and even got off to work earlier than I expected. I had time to stop at the coffee shop and read the paper for a couple of hours. That's a nice way to start the day.

I still am sniffling from allergies but I can't figure out what is causing it. It's later than I usually get allergies. I'll be glad when it's over. My eyes itch and I rub them and then they're worse.

When I woke up this morning I was in a very vivid dream and it took me a minute to realize it was gone. It was so strong and clear but within a few minutes I was already forgetting it. I wish I could remember my dreams. I've tried to write down dreams but I never seem to be able to remember them long enough to even write them down as soon as I wake up.

Some dreams I remember fragments of for a long time. When I was a child I often dreamed of flying. It was so nice. It was always over green meadows on a rolling landscape and I would glide from hill to hill. I also remember dreams of ants and being covered with ants. I don't remember them biting me but I do remember being so scared of them.

I don't think dreams foretell but I do think that sometimes connections will be made between things that are going on in our waking life. I know that I see things in my dreams that are also occuring in real life, but it's just because they are occurring in real life. I see the people and objects in my dreams change as my life changes. I didn't dream for a long time but when I quit smoking I started dreaming every night. In fact I just dreamed, it seemed like, because I certainly didn't sleep much.

It was a year after I stopped smoking before I regularly got a whole nights sleep. They don't tell you this when they talk about stopping. I spent weeks absolutely exhausted from loss of sleep. I also had terrible gas. Very embarrassing. I still do to some extent but that's better also. I did finally find an article that said this would happen. Now they tell me! When you are dying for a cigarette, these are not things you need happening. I also gained a lot of weight and not just because I was eating more.

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Rachel Aschmann 1999.
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