||Sunday, September 1, 2002
I happened on some info on the internet re introverted people and said "aha!". I can remember so many times in my life when I didn't really socialize and did fine just staying home and reading, or whatever. I felt bad, not because I was unhappy, but because I felt like I wasn't normal. I don't mind socializing though I tend to be rather shy and aren't very good at party chatter, but I don't have to have it, yet our society stigmatizes people who aren't always partying. "He was a loner" you hear about a murderer but you don't hear "He was a partyer" even though just as many, if not more, murderers were real party animals.
I felt bad when I would hear about a party I wasn't invited to by, oh, people I work with, for example, even though I hadn't gone to other parties the same group had invited me to. Still I guess it's human nature to want to be included in a group that you spend time with since it's difficult when conversations are about things that everyone else knows about and you have no clue.
I went to see "My Big Fat Greek Wedding" today. I laughed all the way through. It's a great look at two cultures coming together but I must say the wasp side came off the worst. Just cause some of us are quiet and reserved does not mean we aren't fun people. Still it was a fun movie. It made me sad though as I never had a close family, though I admit, I didn't do much to make it close either. As close as the greek family in the movie would probably drive me up the wall, but there is such thing as a happy medium. I was depressed this evening though, thinking about it but I expect a lot of that was all the sugar I've been eating this week and, especially, today. Do I eat sugar because I'm getting depressed or do I get depressed when I eat too much sugar? Still working on that one.
I also finished reading two books. The first was "Coffee to Die For" by Linda French. Teddy, a female, despite the name, and a history professor, is invited to a coffee tasting for the chocolate coffee bean her brother-in-law, Leo, had developed. Then Leo walks in with his new bimbo assistant and his wife, Daisy, who designs and make stuffed animals, is devastated. When later that evening the Leo is murdered in his office Teddy gets busy trying to keep her sister from being charged with murder and keep the fact that Leo also developed a pygmy marijuana plant from the police. I enjoyed the book but wish I could taste the coffee. It sounded wonderful and I was devastated when at the end the plants turned out to not be marketable as they had to be low in caffeine and the caffeine is what keeps the bugs from eating the plants. See, you do learn valuable info from murder mysteries.
The second book was "Bluesong" by Sydney J Van Scyoc. It was interesting but I couldn't really get into it. Why does this type of the sword and sorcery science fiction have some total novice suddenly find out she is capable of wielding vast power and striking down the enemy with no training? I can't get into books that involve surviving by learning some mysterious power. Now "The Lord of the Rings" is different because Gandalf can't win by using his power. Frodo has to actually use his human (?) power of stick-to-itivness to win over the black lord. I was also irritated by theme, again, of women wielding the power and hanging out only with women, using men basically as studs. How can we ever close the gender gap if separating the women and the men is held up as the only way to wield power? Ok, there is a theme also of some of the power women choosing to spend their life with one man. Not a bad book but rather predictable.