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Tuesday, February 22, 2000

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Mom

I went to an AAHS meeting last night. The speaker talked about a site he worked on in northern Mexico. Actually it was southern northern Mexico and probably on the edge of the mesoamerican influence. The site seems to be an astronomical site and possibly involves some of the same sacrifices as were done in central Mexico. Very interesting.

I got out and it had rained and everything smelled so good. I had to put on my poncho on the way home as I was on my bicycle and it started to sprinkle again. I love weather like this, though, and felt energized even though it was late and it had been a long day.

When I got home there was a message from my father that my mother is in pretty bad shape and the nursing home asked if he would like for her to go on hospice care. This would mean that they would keep her as comfortable as possible but not do anything to save her. The doctor had been there and said she had a stroke on the right side and her kidneys seemed to be closing down.

Dad said yes and then left me a message at home, which I did not pick up till I got home at nearly 10:00. I emailed my brothers and children after talking with Dad for a while so I was very tired when I went to bed. Today I noticed that I was holding my breath when the phone rang, but Mom could hang on for quite a while or even pull through, though with the stroke it seemed unlikely.

I need to do laundry, very badly, and a few other things around my apartment but everything seems so prosaic and of little use in the long run, but I know that just keeping up with things will keep my mind off Mom. Well, not off Mom, but at least not becoming too upset. She hasn't know us for a few years and I feel like she is already gone, but knowing that she will be gone for good is hard to take. She's 84 so it's not like she's dying young, but it's always too young for people you know and care about.


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